\u0130stanbul<\/a>\u2019da, Kaynarca\u2019da, B\u00fclent b\u00f6re\u011fin kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131nda, Hakmar\u2019\u0131n, \u015eok\u2019un kar\u015f\u0131 aral\u0131\u011f\u0131nda, Bim\u2019in, A101\u2019in yan\u0131 ba\u015f\u0131nda, son zamanlarda hemen her yerde g\u00f6rmeye al\u0131\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z iki demir kollu, iki ince lastik tekerli, etraf\u0131 eski p\u00fcsk\u00fc mu\u015fambalarla kaplanm\u0131\u015f geli\u015fig\u00fczel el yap\u0131m\u0131 \u00e7\u00f6p toplama arabas\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6r\u00fcnce, m\u00fcsait bir yer arad\u0131m, buldum, durdum. El frenini \u00e7ektim, arabadan indim, bagaj\u0131 a\u00e7t\u0131m. Haftalard\u0131r bu tarihi an\u0131 bekleyen geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm po\u015fetleriyle g\u00f6z g\u00f6ze geldim, dikkatli bir \u015fekilde saplar\u0131ndan tutarak onlar\u0131 al\u0131\u015ft\u0131klar\u0131 yerden d\u0131\u015far\u0131ya \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131m. (\u0130ki demir kollu, iki ince lastik tekerli, etraf\u0131 eski p\u00fcsk\u00fc mu\u015fambalarla kaplanm\u0131\u015f geli\u015fig\u00fczel el yap\u0131m\u0131) \u00e7\u00f6p toplama arabas\u0131n\u0131n yan\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcm. Araban\u0131n yan\u0131nda, hatta yak\u0131n\u0131nda kimsecikler yoktu. Elimdeki po\u015fetleri, basket atar gibi \u00e7\u00f6p haznesine do\u011fru f\u0131rlat\u0131p yoluma devam edebilirdim ki asl\u0131nda genelde b\u00f6yle yapard\u0131m. Ayr\u0131nt\u0131larla ilgilenmez, bahsi sorunsalla\u015ft\u0131rmaz i\u015fime bakard\u0131m. At\u0131\u015f mesafesini ayarlamak, potay\u0131 kar\u015f\u0131ma al\u0131p ni\u015fan pozisyonu almak, f\u0131rlatmak ve baskett.<\/p>\n\u201cKimse yok mu?\u201d diye birka\u00e7 kere seslenince, araban\u0131n ilk bak\u0131\u015fta g\u00f6r\u00fcnmeyen bir yerinden, da\u011f\u0131n\u0131k sa\u00e7lar\u0131, ayd\u0131nl\u0131k mavi g\u00f6zleri, korkak bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131 ve elinde yavru bir kediyle k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck bir k\u0131z \u00e7ocu\u011fu belirdi. Sa\u00e7lar\u0131yla, g\u00f6zleriyle, bak\u0131\u015flar\u0131yla \u201cBiz buraday\u0131z.\u201d diyordu. Titreyen elleriyle ve ayaklar\u0131yla da\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cKimse yok mu, geri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm po\u015fetlerini b\u0131rakacakt\u0131m.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ne dedi\u011fimi anlamad\u0131, konu\u015ftu\u011fum dili bilmiyor gibiydi. Kim bilir belki de, konu\u015fmay\u0131 daha s\u00f6kememi\u015fti. Ona derdimi anlatmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken, elinde birka\u00e7 karton par\u00e7as\u0131 ve plastik \u015fi\u015feyle gen\u00e7 bir k\u0131z, bana ve arabaya yakla\u015ft\u0131k\u00e7a k\u00fc\u00e7\u00fclen ad\u0131mlarla \u00e7\u00f6p arabas\u0131na do\u011fru y\u00fcr\u00fcmeye ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir \u015feylerden \u00e7ekinir, utan\u0131r, korkar gibiydi. Geldi; terli bir al\u0131n ve k\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 bir y\u00fczle iki ad\u0131m \u00f6temde durdu.<\/p>\n
\u201cGeri d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcm po\u015fetlerim var, onlar\u0131 size elden vermek istemi\u015ftim.\u201d<\/p>\n
Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rmadan, utanga\u00e7\/donuk bir y\u00fczle ve titreyen ellerle po\u015fetleri ald\u0131, arabaya b\u0131rakt\u0131. Anlayamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m birka\u00e7 \u015fey dedikten, \u00e7ocu\u011fu araban\u0131n i\u00e7inde bir yere yerle\u015ftirdikten, s\u0131rt\u0131n\u0131 d\u00f6nd\u00fckten sonra bir an \u00f6nce oradan (ve belki de bu d\u00fcnyada kendisine bi\u00e7ilen rolden) uzakla\u015fmak isteyen bir tav\u0131rla araban\u0131n demir kollar\u0131n\u0131 iki eliyle kavrayarak uzakla\u015ft\u0131. Bana bir s\u00fcre onu izlemek kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 kala kala. Kendi ya\u015f\u0131ndaki gen\u00e7 k\u0131zlar\u0131n teneff\u00fcse \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131klar\u0131 okulun \u00f6n\u00fcnden ge\u00e7ti. Ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 kald\u0131rmadan ge\u00e7ti. K\u00fc\u00e7\u00fck ad\u0131mlarla ge\u00e7ti\u2026<\/p>\n
Demek ki b\u00f6yle sahneler sadece filmlerde olmuyormu\u015f.<\/p>\n
(Zeki Demirkubuz\u2019un, Bilge Nuri\u2019nin kulaklar\u0131 \u00e7\u0131nlad\u0131 m\u0131 bilmiyorum.)<\/p>\n
\u0130\u00e7imde y\u00fczy\u0131l\u0131n dilemmas\u0131. \u201cYedi tepeli \u015fehirde b\u0131rakt\u0131m gonca g\u00fcl\u00fcm\u00fc \/ Ne \u00f6l\u00fcmden korkmak ay\u0131p ne de d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnmek \u00f6l\u00fcm\u00fc!\u201d Ger\u00e7i ne tepesi kalm\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u0130stanbul\u2019un ne gonca g\u00fcl\u00fc. Ne \u201cYahya\u201ds\u0131 ne \u201cHamdi\u201dsi ne \u201cOrhan\u201d\u0131\u2026 Dini, iman\u0131 rantt\u0131 art\u0131k bu \u201ckutsal belde\u201dnin. Bakmay\u0131n \u015fairin \u201cSeni hi\u00e7bir d\u00fcnya tela\u015f\u0131na de\u011fi\u015fmedim ben.\u201d demesine, de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015ftik hem de bal gibi de\u011fi\u015fmi\u015ftik. Bu tela\u015f Necatigil\u2019in insan olmaya g\u00f6nderme yapan cinsten bir tela\u015f de\u011fildi, para tela\u015f\u0131yd\u0131, daha \u00e7ok tapu tela\u015f\u0131yd\u0131. Tela\u015f da kirlenmi\u015fti…<\/p>\n
Zaman zaman kendileri i\u00e7in hi\u00e7 de ho\u015f olmayan s\u00f6zler s\u00f6yledi\u011fim bu insanlardan ikisini, ilk defa bu kadar yak\u0131ndan g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.<\/p>\n
\u00dc\u00e7 ya\u015flar\u0131nda bir \u00e7ocukla on be\u015f ya\u015flar\u0131nda gen\u00e7 bir k\u0131z, \u00e7\u00f6p toplamaya \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015flard\u0131.<\/p>\n
(\u0130stanbul, onlar i\u00e7in koskocaman bir \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fckt\u00fc.)<\/p>\n
(\u0130stanbul, onlar i\u00e7in koskocaman bir \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fckt\u00fc.)<\/p>\n
(\u0130stanbul, onlar i\u00e7in koskocaman bir \u00e7\u00f6pl\u00fckt\u00fc.)<\/p>\n
Zihnimden d\u00fcnyadaki \u00fclkeler say\u0131s\u0131nca c\u00fcmleler ge\u00e7ti, biri \u015f\u00f6yleydi:<\/p>\n
\u201c\u00dcmmetinin \u00e7ocuklar\u0131, gen\u00e7 k\u0131zlar\u0131, dilini bilmedikleri bir memlekette \u00e7\u00f6p topluyor!\u201d<\/p>\n<\/article>\n
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Hani N\u00e2z\u0131m der ya: \u201cBen art\u0131k \u015fark\u0131 dinlemek de\u011fil, \u015fark\u0131 s\u00f6ylemek istiyorum\u2026\u201d Aylard\u0131r do\u011fru d\u00fcr\u00fcst bir \u015feyler yazmamam\u0131, hatta yazamamam\u0131 en g\u00fczel anlatan dize bu Yazam\u0131yorum, tad\u0131 tuzu yok kelimelerin, her c\u00fcmlem bo\u015flu\u011fa d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor. Kalemin m\u00fcrekkebi solmu\u015f, k\u00e2\u011f\u0131tlar olur olmaz \u015feylerle dolu. Hayallerin kanad\u0131 k\u0131r\u0131k, r\u00fcy\u00e2larda bile ben yokum. (Geriye \u201chayat\u0131n ve insan\u0131n ger\u00e7ekleri\u201d denen […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":907,"featured_media":31383,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"om_disable_all_campaigns":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[194,5],"tags":[1466,1336,1353,1604,1398,1348],"class_list":["post-48740","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-guncel","category-kose-yazilari","tag-edebiyat","tag-geyve","tag-karacam-koyu","tag-medeniyet-universitesi","tag-muharrem-dayanc","tag-sakarya"],"aioseo_notices":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48740"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/907"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=48740"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48740\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":48741,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48740\/revisions\/48741"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/31383"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=48740"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=48740"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/karacamkoyu.com\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=48740"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}